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Oct 18, 2016 by Amos Berger

THE FIRST YEAR OF MY LIFE WITHOUT MY FATHER

October 18, 2016

 

A year ago today we lost you.

 

Though I speak with you every day, I still find it hard to speak of you … at least not with anyone whose name isn’t Bec. Despite knowing that it was best for me, I’ve refrained from writing about my feelings or even attempting to allow my pain to subside because doing so would acknowledge the permanence of your absence. A few months ago, I decided to let my anger abate and today I can begin sharing my thoughts about losing you with others.

 

I'm trying to put this year in perspective. I still don't understand what the passing of 366 days means. It's gone by both alarmingly fast and painfully slow. In the last 12 months, I’ve accomplished things I know you would have been so proud of. Thankfully, many of these events and milestone were already in motion before you left us, so you knew they were happening and had the opportunity to tell me how proud you were.

 

Time has provided nuanced relief from sorrow. I am now able to remember your raw emotionality when you laughed so hard that you cried or when you stomped your foot in frustration, as opposed immediately picturing the way you looked when we said goodbye to you. But time has also taken memories from me. I’m finding it harder and harder to remember what your hugs feel like.

 

Your death is finally real to me. Your being is no longer a voice on the other end of the phone or the person sitting next to me at a soccer game. You are now your legacy. Your legacy is strong and admirable. It is far-reaching and aspirational. I think I’m beginning to see pieces of you in me.

 

That you will never meet my children and that they will never meet you, is the most tragic thing to come out of all of this. I take solace in the hope that I will one day see you in their faces, their fearlessness, or maybe even in their laughter.

 

Abba, I miss you so much every day.

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WHY I RUN WITH LSS
Oct 18, 2016 by Amos Berger

In The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society’s (LLS) and Team in Training (TNT), I have found a family. TNT has allowed me to meet some of the dearest people I have in my life. These are people who intimately know my struggles and appreciate my strengths to no end. They have been through or are going through similar hardships and have fought with unwavering determination and guile for the pursuit of amazing personal achievements and to work, collectively, to help rid the world of devastating blood cancers and cancers in general.

 

 

I run with LLS to raise funds to help find cures and ensure access to treatments for blood cancer patients. That's where you come in.

 

Your donation will help fund treatments that save lives every day; like immunotherapies that use a person’s own immune system to kill cancer. You may not know it, but every single donation helps save a life with breakthrough therapies such as these.

 

Patients need these cures and they need your support.

 

Please make a donation in support of my efforts with Team In Training and help get us all closer to a world without blood cancers.

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FROM MINNESOTA TO THE ROLLING HILLS OF PROSPECT PARK
Oct 18, 2016 by Amos Berger

This season, I am running two races.

 

The first has already happened. Last Sunday, I ran in the Twin Cities Marathon in Minneapolis and St. Paul, Minnesota. It was a stunning day with even more glorious results. The course was lined with exuberant and friendly Minnesotans who willed me to push through 26.2 miles, (including 4 excruciating painful ones at the end) to finish in 3:42:47 – a 9 minute PR.

 

Of course, I couldn’t have done this without the support of my family, my coaches, my teammates, and most importantly, my fiancée, Bec. Thank you all.

 

 

 

Marathon #2, for anyone interested in supporting me further, is in my backyard. Another 26.2 of endless hills, this time in Prospect Park. I suspect it will provide the typical physical exhaustion of a marathon, with a peppering of mindf*ck as I trudge through the familiar terrain of the park I do most of my training in.

 

Good luck me.

 

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Supporter Comments

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    "Good luck!! Josh & Kim"
     

    Josh & Kim

    Sun Oct 23 09:54:24 EDT 2016

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    "Go Team. Thinking of you and your Dad. "
     

    Pamela Narozny

    Tue Oct 18 10:31:19 EDT 2016

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    "So proud of your, brother. "
     

    Anonymous

    Tue Oct 18 10:14:34 EDT 2016

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    "Your strength is contagious. Keep up the good work. Sending hugs!"
     

    Anonymous

    Tue Oct 18 05:07:19 EDT 2016

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    "Congratulations on your PR this fall, Amos! Thank you for being an inspiration, and thank you most of all for sharing your story with us... Good luck in BK!"
     

    Candice Reeves & Rich Hernandez

    Tue Oct 18 05:06:24 EDT 2016

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The Intersect Group $125.00
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Pamela Narozny $25.00
Josh & Kim