Hi Everyone,

I know its been a while since i filled you all in so here is a quick recap. Running is going well. This past weekend i completed my first 10 MIles!!! Double Digits! Never before did i ever think i would be able to say that.

Got my real running shoes. Thank god.

Also, the Wonderful Anthony Luna was generous enough to make a donation. I understand some people are young and low on money, but i really appreciate the donations. Every bit helps me and the people with this disease.

So lets keep heading toward that finish line.

GO TEAM!

I would like to send a shout out to the wonderful Emma for her donation. Not only that, but she was kind enough to also post my link on her frequently read blog. Hopefully that gets the word out just a little bit more.

I officially am recommited, and filled out all the paper work. I can't get out of it now. So lets help me out so i can cross that finish line and NOT have to pay a grand. Thank you :P

GO TEAM!

Alright everyone,

Its offical. I have decided to recomit and 100% participate in the upcoming half marathon in September. Despite the fact that i have not yet raised half the money i am confident in your support.

So please, help me and those affected by these diseases by donating anything you can.

Anything is appreciated.

GO TEAM

Hello everyone,

I would like to send out another thank you to the wonderful Maricar for her donation. This was the first cash donation i recieved and ill admit it was a little thrilling sending it in myself. Rarely, do we actually get to see the money going to this chairy, and supporting us due to this ever so technilogical age.

I am really greatful and so happy that i am recieving such amazing support. It genuinly makes all those early mornings and mid week runs bearable.

No joke, i still HATE running. But there are too many reasons to quit now. Looks like ill be recommitting when the time comes. I hope you all continue to support me so i dont have to pay a grand by the end of this myself.

GO TEAM!

Hello few if any followers.

I have been thinking lately about this whole charity/running event. Recommitment is coming up and i am not going to lie, i am a little worried. For those of you who don't know, recommitment is the time period where each runner can decided whether or not they want to continue. People who do not recommit tend to do so either because of the running or the money. Now i will express my reason for being fearful. The money. It is a lot and if i do not make the minimum, i have to cover it. I can't possibly do that. I really want to run this race and cross the finish line, but i cannot avoid the financial reality.

This is why YOU donating is so important. Yes, its a good cause and your helping people, but in then end you must realize, WE cannot do this without YOU. Yes, i may be the one training and waking up at 6am to run (which i despise), yet i won't be able to do that if i cannot make the minimum. So i need your help.

I was thinking, maybe for those of you who don't know me well enough to donate, i should introduce myself a little better.

You will see many of the runners in their blogs talking about what a worthy cause this is and how wonderful it is to do this. That is all true, but let me reveal my true reasons for starting this. Let me first say that all my resons mentioned in my previous blogs are true, I love that i am contributing to a charity, that i get to do this with my amazing friends, and that i get to get in shape all at the same time. While all those reasons are valid they are not the real reason i joined. I did this selfishly, i did this for me.

Ill explain further. Since December things have been...difficult to say the least. In a chaotic spiral of hell my life has gone though a lot of rough patches lately. In essence the past 6 months have been a living hell. I rarely express such things overtly. Many of my friends and family may think i am fine. I would disagree. Many days the very concept of getting out of bed has been daunting and seemingly pointless, yet ive continued to do it everyday.

Ive been exhausted lately, after just starting summer school (4 days a week from 8am-1pm), while maintinging training, and trying to some how fit in having fun, eating, sleeping, and showering i seem to have no time. My stress level is higher than i can comprehend some time. And through all this i am still dealing with the shitfest that came my way last December. ITS A LOT. Not to sound like i am complaining, so ill get to the point.

I am doing this for me. Because i want to prove to myself that even when things are shitty and i dont have the energy or desire to roll out of bed each morning i can do things that were once seemingly impossible for me. I cheated every lap in middle school when we were forced to run miles. Now here i am effortlessly running five (still bitching and moaning though). Even in my peak of physical fitness i never would have attempted this. Now emotionally, mentally, and physically exhaustedI i am taking on this daunting task. I need this for me this time. To prove that even when i feel tired and lost i can always pick a direction and head for that finish line. It is because of this that i really ask for your help.

If anyone think that money is what is going to keep me from my goal of crossing that finish line in September they are simply crazy, and should be institutionalized.

Never before would i have forseen that i would be wanting to run 13.1 miles in terrible heat for charity. To prove that moving forward is always an option. Yet here i am. I promise ill bitch and yell during each mile but ill most likely cry from joy when i reaized that the finish line is behind me and ive got a whole new race ahead.

Yes, i ask you to donate because its for an important cause that affects thousands. Yes, i am asking you to donate because i am taking the time and effort to do this (and i dont see you running). But most importantly i am asking you to donate because while many of us force ourselves to go through our shit alone, we shouldnt have to. I isolate myself and dont let others help with my problems. But i am doing this and you can help. You can help me, yourself, and random strangers by donating a few pathetic dollars that you would most likely blow at McDonalds.

I want to continue to do the impossible and i hope you will help. Whatever your reasoning is unimportant. Action is defining. Thoughts turned to action define each individual. So define yourselves well. Be proud of what you do and who you are. Let this help add positive definition to you. I was young, and i cared about strangers. Then i grew up and stopped caring. I stopped feeling connected to the other people in this world that i share it with. But now, somehow, through this program that connection to others is becoming rekindled. And i am so thankful for that. I may never be that caring or charitable, but i have already gotten so much out of this program that at least for now i will continue to be selfish and try my best to keep going and keep getting as much as i can from this experience.

For others or for yourself, please donate whatever you can and lets see just how far we all can go, and how many impossibles we can accomplish.